Last week I met with one of Great CEO we have here in Nairobi, I dint know why he called me but he said I should be smartly dress one thing I know for sure is that , this guy believes in me more that I do for myself . So I arrive at the reception and his secretary tells me to go straight in as his boss had been expecting me. I get to his office; he stands up and welcomes me. He then orders a cup of tea for me as he makes a few calls. After I am done with my tea and he is done with his call, he asks me how I am doing in life (personal and work). So after I explain how I am doing, he deeply breaths in and starts saying. ` Mordecai, I have observed you for a very long time and I must say a great future is ahead for you ` so in my mind I had so many conversations to myself because most times I feel inadequate to do much. Well he went to say that I am a great leader called to do more.
He then tells me he would want me to join him in a meeting he is heading. we go to his board room and I meet other CEOs from different companies ,as we walk to our seats the others stand up and welcome us ( I had only experienced this in movies ) . So we sit and one of the ladies says a prayer and hands over to my friend. He goes on to introduce me and says it’s going to be a very short meeting and the agenda is community engagement. They go round the table presenting what they had prepared and eventually the circle comes back to me .On my mind and my fingers crossed I knew I wasn’t supposed to say anything; however they all insist I should say something. I stand up with my hands sweating and my heart beating very fast while saying a quick prayer. I start by saying how nervous I feel, long story short somehow I deliver a short but comprehensible speech and everyone claps. After the meeting everyone comes to me and hands over their business cards asking me to plan and meet them. I just can’t tell you how some things happen to me… it’s just God. (I am also amazed at the happenings)
How about you? Are there times you feel inadequate? Well Inadequacy is an interesting feeling. Sometimes I feel confident in life and things go well, but in the past and more lately I feel so inadequate in everything, I worry all the time that I am not the best and there are others who can do more, however there are times I stand and do something and it turns out well .most times I tend to feel young and not experienced. Well this brings me to the story of David in the bible ……
He was only a young boy when he cared for his sheep and was the youngest of his siblings. Yet, he was the one chosen by God to be the king of his people. , David was only a boy of 8 to 12 years old. God knew that though David was young, he would grow up to be a man in tune with God’s heart and plan for Israel. The story of him killing Goliath goes on to show us how David felt very adequate to kill Goliath despite everyone looking down on him. So David volunteered to fight Goliath. It took some persuasion, but King Saul finally agreed to let David fight against the giant. Dressed in his simple tunic, carrying his shepherd’s staff, sling and a pouch full of stones, David approached Goliath. The giant cursed at him, hurling threats and insults. He did kill him, well everybody dint expect that but he took courage and believed in himself because he had a God who had gone before him.
Just like David, most time I am faced with situations I feel inadequate I always ask God to fight it for me. So often, when facing situations, we forget what we ought to remember, and we remember what we ought to forget. We remember our defeats, and we forget the victories. Most of us can recite the failures of our lives in vivid detail, but we’re hard-pressed to name the specific, remarkable victories God has pulled off in our past. Not so with David! He says, “You know why I can fight Goliath, Saul? Because the same God who gave me power over a lion and a bear will give me power over Goliath. It is God who will empower me. . . so just let me at him.”
Next time I get to such meeting I will act like a CEO as well. So this year I have told myself , I won’t feel inadequate, not able , too young ( the so many voices ) that all say I can’t. But instead I will rely on God Promises that say, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. There are so many opportunities out there for everyone, you just have to believe you can and just when no one believes you can, GO KILL THAT GOLIATH and they will know the God you serve is a God of possibility.