God responds to shameless audacity and strong-willed tenacity search for Him
This week I had an opportunity to present to class my take on the book about Gladys Aylward, a little British woman missionary to China. The genesis of Gladys story began at a gathering where she felt that God had called her to go share the message of Hope in china. Gladys was not learned, did not know how to share Gods word to anyone. Infact, Gladys was dismissed from a missionary school where they told her that she was not fit for the job. Despite the obstacles she faced, God used her and her legacy lives till today generations later.
It has not been two days since I was challenged by the life of Gladys that I was sitting on table with young students when one of them breathed deeply and almost crying saying “ Guys, I do not know how I feel about pursuing a bible class anymore, it is not for me, I have failed so badly in my papers” she uttered while the look on her face seemed so helpless. As soon as she finished talking, my heart sank so deep. My generation has lost so much hope on experiencing God. Where have we gone wrong? Is there hope for us?
I have lately wrestled so much with the idea that my generations is drifting away from church and anything that is associated with church. Since I came to America, I have been in spaces where there has been so many bible conversation, people know the bible, so many smart people who can close their eyes, speak verses, and even interpret for you with so much thought. Trust me, as much as I admire this, it has scared me so many times. I overheard another student say, “The Bible has its own people, the Bible majors not me” I will just read mine on my own. There just might be a huge bunch of smart minds but sick hearts.
In as much as my generation has a wrong perspective on how to approach the word of God, Let us cut them some slack, there is so much they are wrestling with and trying to seek solutions. At this point in life, most of them live in the dorms and are trying to find a local church. Most of them, this is the first time they begin forming their own beliefs away from what their parents have made them believe. To make matters worse, they get to college, old testament and new testament classes open them to a whole new world………… It is just waaaay to much.
It confuses us when loving God seems so hard. Shouldn’t it be so easy yet so wonderful?when we love God because we feel we should love Him,Intsed of genuinely loving out of our true selfs, we have forgotten who God really is. Each of us, to some degree, fools our friends and family about who we really are. But it is impossible to do that with God. He knows each of us deeply and specifically. He knows our thoughts before we think them, our actions before we commit them, whether we are lying down or sitting or walking around. He knows who we are and what we are about. We cannot escape Him, not even if we want to. When I grow weary of trying to be faithful to Him and want a break, it doesn’t come as a surprise to God.
Here is what I would say to my generation. Not being able to fully understand God is frustrating, but it is ridiculous for us to think we have the right to limit God to something we are capable of comprehending. God is powerful, holy and there is no way we can even fathom all of whom He is.
God loves you and is seeking for you. Do not be intimidated as you live out your God given call and your pursuit for Him. God just wants you to love him so much and He will love you back JUST AS YOU ARE. Keep Praying and ask God to meet you where you are, and you will hunger for him like never before. God responds to shameless audacity and strong-willed tenacity search for Him. We are Gods kids, he is a good good Father, who cares, wise , patient, and close to hear you.